리틀팍스

14/09/2018 Friday

Weather: T-shirt-long, pants-short

Main Topic: Jealousy

Dear Diary,

Today, a horrable thing happened. I saw Yerin talking to another girl at school! Well..she could talk to anybody she like but...

I want her to be only 'my' bestfriend. I don't want to share her. She is the only girl who speaks to me and play with me.

She is my countryside's Ella. How I miss her... Ella and I could barely meet twice in one year!

I was full of rage. That girl is more prettier then I am. And Yerin told me that she was her bestfriend from 3 years old!

I was so jealous. It was like when Ella and I were 3th grade. Back then, Ella had a new friend.

She played with her. Once I tried to play with them, but that only brought me to trouble and a hurt feeling with Ella.

I don't want it to happen again, so I stayed silent watching the whole act with anger in my heart.

Finally, I couldn't bare it. I stood up and stompped over to them. When I tried to say something, the bell rang-recess was over.

I was so embarrassed! Yerin and her friend, Flora looked at me like seeing a mad girl! All the students looked at me.

As I said, I am a shy girl to a person I don't know. My face got red. Then, Flora started to laugh!

It was the end with her. I grasped my backpack and ran home, cring. Then, I locked my-self in my room.

My mom knocked. I opened it. She said, "Dear, whats wrong?". At that word, I feeled mother's worry.

I couldn't bare it any more. I cried into mother's lep. She petted me in the head.

After 30 minutes cring, I felt fresh. Then, I told her the whole story. How I felt jealous, and how I was embarrassed when Flora laugh at me. Mother heard the story calmly. Then she said in a calm voice, "Sometimes, You can't have anything you want."

That word shot at my heart like an arrow. I know it. But I don't want to admit it. Mother continued, "But, Flora was very mean to you. If you aren't strong enough, you don't have to go to school."

I thought for a minute. I didn't want to see Flora, but, I also didn't want to miss my favorite teacher's class.

So, I decided to face Flora. But, I could never forget the face Yerin made, it was like laughter mixed with confuse.

Wait, I am crying...Oh..It must be the tear of losing a bestfriend...

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