리틀팍스

 I had had jealous feelings lots of times, but the reasons were just two. I think jealous feelings are impossible to make it unhappen; all the feelings are, and especially since I'm not a very confident person with confident minds which you can regularly control. But I can't.

 First, the most reason of jealousy, is because of friendship. Friendship is nothing to boys, but it's very important to girls. Girls fight a lot because of friendship, though I don't. It happened when I was in forth grade, and one of my friend was in my class, and one in the other. It was just a normal day when I was walking up the school steps when I looked out the window, oblivious that two girls who I knew was walking. I walked up another floor and finally saw that my two friends were going to school together. I never knew and imagined they would come to school together, though they lived in the same direction from the school, and I in the opposite. I don't know why, and I regret now, but at that time, I felt so angry that my friends were coming to school by themselves without me. I did meet them sometimes, but it was a very few times. I was so angry and furious, I ignored them when my friend in the other class came to our class after school and just ran home first, and also ignored them when I met them when I went to school. But when they were each alone, I just wanted to be nice to them and so I was. I didn't know then I was jealous, but I was. Who did I be jealous at? Both of my friends. I felt they were close to each other than they were to me. I wouldn't have felt so angry just with that, but I was the one who helped them meet each other two years ago, and now they were betraying me? That was it, and I ignored them for two weeks or even more. But now we are BFFs again.

 The second type of jealousy happens because of grades or scores. As I said, I'm not confident, nor generous. So if I get very bad grades on something like math or English or Korean or science, I feel so upset un-noticingly. And even more if there's a friend who's grades are good or at least better than me. Then I would feel more upset. And then, I might become fierce or violent and cause trouble. So, I sometimes need some time and help to control my feelings like that. So, the only thing I can do is to study hard so I can get good scores, and I'll be in a good mood.

 In conclusion, I've had two types of reasons which cause jealousy. First is because of friendship, and the second is grades. Feelings cannot be stopped; at least not perfectly. But jealousy is not a good feeling, so I'll try not to have jealous feelings though I'm a situation which could make this feeling.