Cloud, I'm really angry at you for what you wrote. I am short-tempered, you know that. So I just say words, and do things without thinking twice. I've got in real big trouble for that a lot of times. And I admit that I'm really bad. I'm really, really bad. I'm revengeful, I'm thoughtless, I'm cruel and vicious sometimes. So I wanted to apologize to you if I say unwillingly say some nasty things below. You and Bluestar all suggested to stop this lettering, but I reject that. I'm going to write until I clear mine, and Bluestar's name. Bluestar has NOTHING to do with this letter because, (if you had been a little bit interested in Bluestar's life, you would know that) Bluestar is at English Academy and would come back at eight. So I'm writing this letter entirely by myself.
"But if I said "I want to play with Eriac and Bluestar because to see Eriac's dog!" to my mother, what would you think my mother's answers would be? I know the answer perfectly. "N.O."
But I asked to my mother like this. "May I play with Eriac and Bluestar because of speech contest?" Then, she said. "Of course you can. But only once. I'm letting you play because of English."
Do you think I really played because of Eriac's dog? You guys are not me! And I know myself well than you guys. I'm sorry... but I think you guys are saying Big. Fat. Lies!"
You said this. But we weren't talking about what you told your mother in the first place. It is that you told us that you wanted to play with us because of S.C., but that turned out to be a lie, as Bluestar and I told you about the reason why we think you've lied to us in our last letter. Clip this - > https://www.littlefox.co.kr/ko/english_forum/bbs_view/1193764/0/2/N/null/null//null/null
"Second, I thought of Bluestar when her attitude changed. So I didn't said a word about 'your attitude is so bad' or 'You didn't changed at all!' to Bleustar. But now, you guys say that I didn't thought of Bluestar? Okay.. let's think like this.
I didn't thought of Bluestar when her attitude changed.
But you guys didn't thought of me when Bluestar ignored me.
And you guys also didn't thought of me when you guys just ran downstairs together! Not including me!
I didn't thought of you guys once, and you guys didn't thought of me twice.
So I think.. you guys' fault is more bigger than mine."
I don't understand what you intend to say above. That you thought of Bluestar's changed attitude? We weren't talking about Bluestar's changed attitude, if you were saying that.
Well, let's let's suppose that Bluestar's attitude DID change. In that case, did you consider WHEN her attitude changed? Have you EVER thought about it? If you NEVER, EVER considered Bluestars feelings, read our last letter:
https://www.littlefox.co.kr/ko/english_forum/bbs_view/1193764/0/2/N/null/null//null/null
These sentences, "I thought of Bluestar when her attitude changed." and "I didn't thought of Bluestar when her attitude changed." doesn't make any sense. You thought of Bluestar when her attitude changed, but you didn't thought of Bluestar when her attitude changed??????
"And you guys also didn't thought of me when you guys just ran downstairs together! Not including me! I didn't thought of you guys once, and you guys didn't thought of me twice."
This sentence is wrong because you didn't think of Bluestar a WHOLE LOT of times. And we waited for you DOWNSTAIRS. Then what about the time when you suggested to leave me behind while I go to the library? You dragged Bluestar along with you while running downstairs, leaving me behind! I had to run to catch up to you! So here, do you think I appreciated that you ran away even though you told me you would wait for me? I still remember how I felt like crying that moment, and I actually cried at my house. Bt not too loudly because I didn't want my mother to notice and tell your mother, or Bluestar's mother even though you just dragged Bluestar along, and Bluestar didn't do anything wrong. You'd probably don't remember that day, do you? It would've been so miner to you, but I remembered that day ever since. You DIDN'T even wait for me. But we AT LEAST waited for you. I was late to my Math Academy because I waited for you! I TOLD that to you in my last letter! And what about the time when you just walked home with your friend, and never told us that? You totally ignored US! I NEVER did that, you know. I was so upset!
"Third, about Yoon and my attitude to Bluestar, I don't think I ignored Bluestar that much. We were playing board games together. And Bluestar didn't just came to us and played.
If I were you Bluestar, I think I would've just said. "Can I join?"
That's very simple. We didn't played with Bluestar because she was reading book in the first place!
We thought Bluestar didn't wanted to play with us because she was reading book and concentrating!
Do you think you would've go to a book reading person and ask. "Do you want to play with us or not?"
And when our teacher said "play with Bluestar."... Bluestar said. "It's okay." to us! So that's why we didn't played with her.
Also, you guys ignore me. Than, you guys say that I ignored you and you are sad?!"
I am so tired of telling you this, but you don't get the point! Ever since you and Yoon dragged Bluestar up to 5th floor even though she said to stop, Bluestar made up her mind that you would EVER again think of her as a friend. SHE told you that in her letter! And you said we ignored you. Now, WHERE was you when Yoon dragged Bluestar to 5th floor? YOU just laughed at Bluestar and DRAGGED her as well. Even though she protested, you IGNORED her and LAUGHED at her. Were you so happy when we ignored you? Bluestar is also human, just like YOU! She ALSO feels how you felt when we ignored you! And, remember the first semester of 5th grade? You ignored me in the cafeteria. You and Bluestar urged me to go to MY house, even though I never wanted to! You treated me more BADLY! You and Bluestar made a team and only attacked me while playing board games! Even though those board games WEREN'T team-playing! At least Bluestar apologized, but you NEVER did. Bluestar must have known that THAT would happen if SHE played with you and Yoon!
Bluestar must have given up all her confidence and her honor in here for your humiliating letter about HER and of the fact that you NEVER apologized! And you don't admit or give in a THING that's true, and don't apologize when Bluestar did about IGNORING me while playing those board games and leaving me behind? You want more stories about how YOU ignored me? And how I felt afterward?!
"I don't think that's not fair. You guys ignored me at the first place and didn't aplogized. So I think.. I don't want to aplogize to you guys first.
P.S. And let's do not send another humiliating letters to each other. Bye forever. Bluestar and Eriac.
P.P.S.S. Yoon is a good girl. Why do you think Yoon as a bad girl? I can't understand you guys."
So YOU are the good girl whose being IGNORED? Have you EVER tried to think about your behavior toward me in the first semester of 5th grade? Or 4th grade? You want the whole story? Well, say it if you want. I will tell you very specifically how your behavior affected my life, and my feelings. Just ASK!
So are you wanting US to apologize first? Because we tried to avoid you because you only wanted to see Eriac's dog? And all the hatred inside you to us must have made a big mountain? THAT'S no fair.
And you can't understand why we think Yoon is NOT kind, huh? Well, from what I heard from Bluestar, your attitude toward us CHANGED when you became close with Yoon. And when did I say Yoon was a BAD girl? I never said that. And DON'T make up fake things to make people believe that WE are bad.
And you yourself said that Yoon wasn't a good girl. You said Yoon was okay, but not good. Remember the phone call we had? I asked you whether Yoon was a good girl, and you said NO. And it is I, who couldn't understand you. Why do you always think of what YOU went through? YOU never apologized for what you did to ME and BLUESTAR. Have you ever thought about me and Bluestar's feelings? Have we EVER been friends, or HUMANS to you? If you have, please think of what you did before you letter me again.
Bye Cloud, bye.
P.S. Please treat your next best friend better than how you treated us.
P.P.S.S. And I noticed that you just ignored the part where I mentioned how you and Yoon were bad to Bluestar. Please check that part again.
Confident and clear, your ex-friend, Eriac
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