While I don't consider myself a particularly big fan of music, but I have recently found myself composing a few songs on my own and taking the time to listen others songs.
If I may offer my perspective, I find "By your Side" to be a song of great merit.
The lyrics are quite moving.
The my favorite lyrics among them is this.
" Why are you striving these days
What are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me left up your face
Just don't turn away..."
It's the song speaks of God's words to us.
Strangely it feels like God is speaking directly to me. it seems as though there is a certain sentiment that resonates with me.
"To where you go child, tell me where will you run."
"These hands that are holding you,
My hands are holding you...."
I know he is always waiting for us and trying to talk with us but yet, personally I have not experienced felt him wanting to speak to me or give me life.
Comparing my memories I'd felt like he's not around me, and the surrounding air has a certain chill. That chill strikes me deeply.
Think about the memories that I had was crying and very upset about having no mom, no dad, that was just a only 'me'.
The teacher that I know called to me on the phone and said,
" You never get interested in God before,
so maybe this is a time his chance to connect with you.
He wants to talk with you more frequently and get close with you through this times.
If you're happy and having fun, usually you can't feel the God that presence. But if you're alone, it's easier to sense him around you.
You're not alone. There's nothing to that you afraid of.
God's here with you,
and others also here for you"
Maybe that would be the touching stories but I was not touched by it. I'd became more and more upset.
Is that God really left me alone for just simply want to talk with me? I thought that is a bit brutal for young teens.
I'd opened my Bible and try to read but I was too angry and couldn't concentrate.
God's here with me? But I couldn't see anywhere. And couldn't feel any warm air.
It was a room that I found my self in.
Staring an empty space I wondered God is does NOT care of about me as I thought.
This song made me feel that as if God were reaching out to communicate with me and reminded he does not turn away his face when I'm alone. He's always there for me.
That's the reason why I'd so touched by
"Why are you crying
Let me left up your face
Just don't turn away..."
I'd felt like he's said to me "that's okay".
And I believe he actually did.
I hope I will never lose my faith to him, and keep going.
May God bless you.